The nearing completion of this master's degree brings forth a paradoxical experience of time—swift yet serene.
When fully immersed in the creation of art, moments effortlessly soar with astonishing speed. Yet, in ordinary hours, time meanders lazily, particularly during the contemplation of ideas. The nature of this journey remains uncertain, but as two years slip away, it becomes akin to a state of simultaneous clarity and ethereal haziness.
But do we truly require absolute lucidity? Perhaps embracing a hint of ambiguity is not amiss. It merely calls for a fleeting moment of awakened clarity—to allow the most blurred version of oneself to conceive ideas—and then, with utmost clarity, commence the exploration of all conceived within that nebulous realm.
Throughout these two years, I have harbored a powerful sentiment—the necessity to explore balance: balancing ideas, perspectives, creations, and the tapestry of my own life. However, each individual defines balance upon their own scales, and thus, I perpetually ponder the essence of equilibrium. This contemplation is not a fleeting endeavor but a long-term quest, one that I shall continue to pursue in the future.
In the midst of this journey, my professor inscribed the following comment:
"Powerful but simple;
Loud but quiet;
Subtle but obvious."
These contrasting phrases may seem ordinary, yet they serve as a resounding affirmation within me. I perceive them as a grand accolade, a recognition of my aesthetics—an assertion of the gentle resistance I offer to society, deriving strength from subtlety. It feels as if I strive to exert force but encounter the sensation of powerlessness, a delicate imbalance sought within the realm of balance. Equilibrium can manifest as a harmonious sensation, not necessarily a physical equilibrium.
I have long been apprehensive about making decisions, fearing the weight of regret. Yet, in the latter half of my master's degree, I stumbled upon a method to unravel this dilemma, seeking a resolution. I hope to employ this approach in the future to confront such challenges. This, perhaps, marks my greatest progress. I have also ventured into various materials, embracing experimentation, and finding joy in my own growth. It seems I have become more adept at navigating the realm of materials.
Moreover, I have embarked on numerous new endeavors, such as delving into music. I hope to continue fostering progress and embracing further growth.
這個碩士學位的接近完成了，時間飛快而從容。
當全神貫注地創作藝術品時，瞬間就會以驚人的速度飛逝。 然而，在平常的時刻，時間懶洋洋地流逝，尤其是在思考想法的時候。 這段經歷是好是壞還不確定，但兩年過去了，它就像一直都是在一種既清醒又朦朧的狀態。
但我們真的需要完全清醒嗎？ 也許擁抱一絲朦朧並無不妥。 它所需要的只是一個轉瞬即逝的清醒時刻——讓最模糊的自己構想想法——然後，以最清晰的方式，開始探索在那片朦朧中構想的一切。
而我在這兩年，有一個強大的感覺，其實需要探索的是如何平衡，平衡想法，平衡心態，平衡作品，平衡我的人生。但每個人的天平上對平衡的定義都有不同的，所以一直都會在思考什麼是平衡呢 ？可能這個思考並非一時半刻的，是長遠一點的，所以我都會再未來繼續探索的。
我的老師在評語中寫了
“powerful but simple
loud but quiet
subtle but obvious”
這組對比詞語感覺是一個普通的詞語，但卻對我是一個強心針，因為我覺得這是一個很大的讚美，感覺就是他在認可我的美學，這輕力的對社會的反抗，就是因為力度很小，有種想發力又發不了的感覺的無力感。就像在平衡中尋找倒不平衡感。平衡的可以是感覺的平衡，不一定是實體上的平衡。
我一直都很害怕做決定，去決定應該做什麼題目，因為怕自己後悔，但是在碩士學位的最後半年竟然尋找倒一個方法去知道如何可以解決這個難題，希望之後可以繼續用這個方法去解決這個難題。這可能是我的最大進步，我也在應用不同的材料中做了很多嘗試，這是我自己喜歡自己的進步點，好像在用材料這一環更得心應手了。
還做了很多的新嘗試，例如做音樂 哈哈。希望繼續可以有更多的進步吧。